Lea's
9.28.2008 LOVE LETTER #02: BART.

Dear Bart,

It has been 5 years since the unfortunate event happened. I cannot believe our family is still sane. I cannot believe we are still holding on. 

The last 5 years were worse. I thought I could cheat by telling myself that you were just somewhere in abroad, studying in a boarding school. Hindi pala. Mahirap pala. I thought it would be easy if I talk about you more often, but I was wrong. The lost will never be easy. 

I miss you every time I eat Chicken Joy or KFC. 
I miss watching Rugrats and Hey Arnold with you. 
I miss you every Simbang Gabi. Wala na akong kasama mag-attend.
I miss you when I take a nap. Wala nang sumisiksik sa kama ko sabay hilik.
I miss you every morning. Wala na yung nagpapalakas ng volume ng TV.
I miss fighting with you. Palagi kasi akong nananalo.
I miss you every time I see an older sister taking care of her younger brother.
I miss you every time you call me Ate. For me, you are the only one who can call me Ate.
I miss you so much.
We miss you so much you have no idea.


Happy 15th birthday Bart, our home is not the same without you. 

I love you so much and I cannot wait to see you. 

Loving you always,
Ate

9.26.2008 BECAUSE HE'S MORE CUTE.

I am a self-confessed couch potato. That is why when I was in 2nd year high, my parents gave me a TV (just a simple one, wala pang flat nun e) as their Christmas present to me. Plus I am pretty selfish when it comes to TV. My brothers and I usually fought over the TV (sibling fights).


It has been 7 years already and I am proud to say that my TV is still in very good condition. It has never been brought to a shop or whatsoever. My brother had already 3 TVs in the last 7 years. My parents had 2 I think. But me, just one.

I had no intentions of replacing my TV (since it has been a loyal and very good piece of equipment), until I saw this one.
 My kind of Tube: 20S400A.

How can I do this to my TV?! Looking at others! Unfaithful! But he knows that someday, I have to replace him. But is this too soon? I don’t know.

No I will not throw my TV. I will probably relocate him. I will never forget the service he gave to me. He will always be my favorite TV.


9.23.2008 WAPOISE.

Never ever remove tiniks stuck in your gums while you are in a semi-public area (for example, pantry). You’ll never know kung sino ang biglang dadating para uminom ng water sabay titig sa iyo with a cute questionable look.

Then kunwari hindi mo siya napansin. You go straight to your work area. Then pagsilip mo, nakatingin pa din siya sa iyo.

Wapoise diba? Ang masakit pa dito, you haven’t removed the three tiniks stuck in your gums.

9.21.2008 ANNOYING. (ROUND2!)

I have made another list of things that annoy me. Most probably, these things annoy you too. Mind you, I'm not a pessimist. It's just plain annoying.

• Where na you? Andito na me. And all that stuff related to shortcut SMS. Slight tamad ka.
• 5-second stoplights – Come on. Hindi pa nga nakakacross yung car in front of the line, red na ulit. 
• People who keep borrowing my stuffs yet they can’t return it properly – Ikakadena ko na lang ng gamit ko!
• People who wakes up other people for no particular reason. It’s very annoying, lalo na at kakatulog mo pa lang. 
• People who do not reply to confirm – 50cents na lang naman ang SMS diba. Or at least YM or call sa landline. Be courteous enough to reply.
• This girl named Gwendaline. She keeps on asking the same question. I have already answered it 100 times yet she can’t understand it. 
• Our help here in our house who keeps on damaging our clothes and other stuffs. Hindi na pwede ang one more chance.
• The afternoon smell of people riding the LRT2. I will suggest to the LRT admin na hindi dapat ang hatian ay babae at lalaki. Dapat ang hatian ay mababango at mababaho. Diba? 
• Posers punks and Goths – There is still time to change!
• Wet sink – Actually not the sink but the top part of the sink. At least don’t wet it. May boundary yung sink diba. 
• Six Cycle Mind and Cueshe – need I say more?
• And lastly, still the unnecessary and unwanted thoughts. Please, spare me.



9.19.2008 CINE EUROPA.

As of now, this is the closest thing to my Europa dream.

Super thanks CTC for this photo.

Out of 16 films, I only saw 3 (After the Wedding, Children of the Moon, Love Songs). But I am happy that I saw the movies that I really want. Next year, I will watch again. Or perhaps next year, my Europa dream will come true.

Beau.



9.12.2008 GRADE SCHOOL ALL OVER AGAIN.

When you were in preschool or grade school, have you experienced being left by your sundo? And when you were left by your sundo, did you ever feel like you were not forgotten, rather, you were abandoned? Did you cry so hard hoping that when your sundo arrives, he/she will feel pity? Guess what, I got to experience it again. Well, something like that.

It was pretty much an ordinary start. I readied my breakfast, my lunch, my bag and my wallet. I always make sure that I have my LRT card and at least have enough money inside my wallet. Kundi, hindi ako makakapasok.

When I checked my wallet, php10 lang laman niyang pera. Obviously the amount isn’t enough. But I didn’t worry because I was actually planning to withdraw some cash (later that day).

Never thought this will happen.

Ayaw gumana ng LRT card ko. So I asked for assistance. The LRT girl told me that hindi nacredit yung last trip ko, so I have to pay php15 daw. Yes oh yeah, php15.

I checked my whole bag. Mga kasingit-singitan. Pero wala. I looked for an ATM but unfortunately, wala din. I was scanning the crowd, looking for a familiar face, pero wala. Where the hell will I get php5???

Part of me wanted to kneel na, raise my left arm and beg for php5, but no way. I was way too dressy to beg. And of course, I’m too smart to beg (but not too smart to bring enough money hahaha).

I called sa bahay to ask if our driver has already arrived there. Hindi pa daw. Bummer.

I called my kabarkada and asked if she could fetch me. She’s not at home daw. Bummer again.

I called my officemate (who lives near the station) and asked if she’s on her way to work na. She said yes! Blessing from God!

I waited for about an hour for php5. Great. It was tiring pero okay lang. Nakakaiyak at nakakatawa lang because I never anticipated this. Of all the things that will bite me, I never thought of this.

Grade school all over again. Buti na lang hindi ako umiiyak. Pero I was on the verge of crying na hahaha! I really loathe being left alone. Lalo na without money.

Lesson here is be a girl scout.

And oh, that God is a funny God.


9.10.2008 REAWAKENED.

For the last few weeks, I have been going back and forth to Fully Booked, just checking out maps and guides of Philippines. Yes, I finally have rekindled my interest in touring the whole Philippines. It has been a dream of mine and I know that someday it will happen.  There are places I want to see, people I want to mingle with.  Amidst all the chaos,  I want to see the beauty of our country.  

So I am happy to say that I already bought a guide book. Next step, using it.



9.08.2008 I FEEL LIKE A HERO & YOU ARE MY HEROINE.

Look who I bumped into.

It's Paul of Boys like Girls! 

I envy his tattoos! Hanggang envy lang syempre hahaha!

9.05.2008 QUARTER LIFE CRISIS.
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you did not know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to are not exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they were not so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger.

You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lie in bed and wonder why you cannot meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.

You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Thank you Danielg for this photo.

9.03.2008 FROM 055037 TO 055233.
A couple of weeks ago, my friends and I decided to go on a road trip to Taal. We were pretty much excited because it was the first time for all of us. We all woke up early and ventured into what I call a paranoia roadtrip. Lahat kasi nagbaon ng kanya kanyang paranoia. The best was of course Vitoria’s. While she was preparing daw for the trip, she heard sa news na Taal’s going to erupt. Nice. According to her, tinawag sa news na mapangahas ang Taal. All I did was laugh. Asang puputok yun diba.

Anyway, we got in Batangas easily because of the road signs (and good navigation courtesy of Jengie). When we were looking for a bangca to rent, a lot of people riding a motorcycle swarmed us. When I say swarmed, as in swarmed. Dumog. As in while I was driving, they were talking to me. They were in front of the vehicle, at the back of the vehicle and right beside me! It was creepy kasi parang may paparazzi and/or killers. Believe me, hindi ka nila titigilan.

As soon as we got a bangca, ayun, larga na. We were spotting on what part of Taal will we go. Malamang sa crater. So while on the bangca, we were actually wondering why we weren’t on the way papuntang volcano. Apparently, hindi pala yun yung volcano! The volcano was like on the center of the whole Taal and not sa gilid part. Mapanlinlang!

This is not the Taal Volcano na alam natin. Paasa.

After the arriving sa Taal, we were immediately horded by natives. Benta dito, benta jan. Hats, sleeves, water, food. All the things that they could possibly sell, they will sell. We looked for the guy who manages the whole Taal trip. He said that we could ride a horse for php850. No way! Mahal! Maglalakad na lang kami, nakaya nga ng mga tour guides e! So it was only Vitoria who rode (for php600) because of her knee injury. Salit-salitan na lang kami.

But of course, wala pang ten minutes, we all gave up. Steep masyado. Good thing there were horses following us. And the best thing was bumaba ang price for php300! Nice!

The very long and winding road.

It was very tiring. Imagine if we walked. As soon as we arrived sa crater, believe me, I was amazed. I love this kind of nature. I love exploring Philippines. The scenery was so beautiful that I want ng ganun sa backyard namin (OA). 

Taal was like a celebrity. We had to take a photo with it.

Then our guide accompanied me (only me because my friends were already tired) to this secluded place wherein I could see the whole crater plus the scenery outside Taal. 

Stellar.


Konting hakbang na lang, langit na.

It’s a good thing our government got to preserve this. This is one of the treasures of our country. 

After lingering, we decided to go down. Mahirap pala talaga sumakay sa kabayo. Masakit. We had two choices as to how to go down: ride the horse or maglakad. Obviously, we all rode the kabayo. Pero masakit. Nakakapagod.

All in all, the trip was uber fun. Paranoia and fun spells good road trip talaga. It’s something I will never forget. It’s something all of us will never forget. Because on that day, we were Taal virgins no more.


9.01.2008 QUOTABLE QUOTE #02: TONY TONI

Alam mo yung feeling na masakit pero kunwari hindi?

Tony Toni, Boys night out

Hola.
With eyes of a watchman
With ears of a superhero
With nose of a canine dog
With mouth like an armalite
With hair like the weather
With smile like a beautiful morning

With a singing voice like a broken jukebox
With dancing moves like a bunot on a floorwaxed floor

With patience of an elevator operator
With determination of a snail
With courage of a lion and tiger combined

With mind of her own
With heart of her own

Capítulo.
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Gracias.
.fourth!Romance is the designer.
Inspiration from Exuvalia.